Not so sure what to write today. I'm at my apartment watching some korean drama instead of working. My wrist is still hurting from Carpel Tunnel. I'm debating between getting up from sofa to check on my steamed vegetable in the microwave or writing this journal or work. This week I am feeling very emotional. Last weekend mom, cousin, and aunt all started talking about marriage again. I don't know how I feel about that. I guess I'm helpless. Sometimes I wonder is it me who is stopping myself from getting married or is it actually the fate. Is there something call fate exist? Maybe I'm after my success very much that I prevent myself from getting into relationship or settling down. I am dating a nice guy who is financially stable, honest, and loyal. He's also good looking too. However, I feel as if we lost the chemistry. When I'm alone and think about him, I don't know if I want to hang out with him, kiss him, or hug him or I'm just using him to fi
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