Not so sure what to write today. I'm at my apartment watching some korean drama instead of working. My wrist is still hurting from Carpel Tunnel. I'm debating between getting up from sofa to check on my steamed vegetable in the microwave or writing this journal or work. This week I am feeling very emotional. Last weekend mom, cousin, and aunt all started talking about marriage again. I don't know how I feel about that. I guess I'm helpless. Sometimes I wonder is it me who is stopping myself from getting married or is it actually the fate. Is there something call fate exist? Maybe I'm after my success very much that I prevent myself from getting into relationship or settling down. I am dating a nice guy who is financially stable, honest, and loyal. He's also good looking too. However, I feel as if we lost the chemistry. When I'm alone and think about him, I don't know if I want to hang out with him, kiss him, or hug him or I'm just using him to fi
I'm so frustrated.. I'm gonna be 27 years old in a week, still single and no where near getting married. I need to get married and settle down. Not just that I want to but for fucks sake. Life is just so frustrating and with my stupid luck, it seems like every time I meet a man, it's always a disappointment. I'm just not sure what to do. I can stop thinking about it but that means just completely give up hope of getting married. I don't want to spend my entire life being alone. That's what I am most afraid of. Why oh why can't I find a good man to settle down. Someone who also wants to settle down with ME, someone who's not divorce or has kids, or half my age, or men who doesn't have a job or not financially independent yet. AHHHHHH.... I just want to scream.... People say so many bullshit, "you're too young", "Good things come to those who waits", or "You haven't found a man yet coz God is saving the best for y