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Life suck!!!!

Why am I PMS-ing??? Everything is just so irritating, even the phone calls my dad's getting. Why do people keep calling you when the first time you don't pick up your call? I mean seriously, dude. If I don't pick up your call, it means I'm busy or not near the phone so stop calling literally after you hand up IT IT'S NOT EMERGENCY!!!! 

Ugh! People piss me off. I have no idea where this anger and frustration is coming from. I need to talk to someone. I need to have that friend who can guide me and do things with me so I can calm the freak down. It's like Life itself is playing with me. 

I'm so mad that every word I type I have to settle because in my mind I'm cursing so bad. This is not the person I am. What's happening? Why does life gets to frustrating? How do people handle that. I'm going crazy thinking about my financial state and my career and then studying and then not being social. It's like all the problem at the same time. But it feels like there's something bugging me inside so bad that I'm just making excuses and taking it out on anything I do. 

OMG! I just cleaned today. I clean when I'm frustrated and running away from something. Am I scared of commitment? I'm not talking about romantic life I'm talking about commitment in general. I wish I could just talk to someone who has insight. Everyone is just so freaking busy with their life that I can't talk about me anymore. 

I'm stuck in life and I have no idea what to do. Whenever I tell my friends, all they say "well figure it out. Find out what you want to do". If I already knew how to do that don't you think I would have already done that. The whole reason for asking someone that I....

Sometimes, I wish God would just put me out of my misery and just take me away. It hurts to say that. I have no many things to do and go on in life. But nothing ever I mean EVER goes the way I want to. I wonder what's the purpose of living?? If I have to work sooo hard for every steps I take and have to think 100times before I can even enjoy life, then what is the pointttt!!!!

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